You're also in no worse shape than you were this time last year. Many are. Life passes you by because you focus on the mind numbing aspects of it. You love the area where you live; focus on that. Let that, your wife and your dogs give you something to focus on. Everybody has to earn a living. Maybe not by punching a clock, but the living still must be earned. Nothing's free. Nothing. And there are many who work their asses off, and don't quite make a living for it. Find something to make it worth it to you.